This is a prayer for wives when they are suffering from their husband’s pornography use or unfaithfulness.
I am coming to you today to ask for Your love. I am desperately in need of it. Right now I feel so unloved. I feel unworthy. I don’t know if I ever really was loved or if I’ll ever be loved again.
I’ve always been an emotional and sensitive person. I never looked forward to the time right after having a baby. One time after delivery, I was very happy and adjusted easily into caring for a newborn. However, with two of my children, I was very overwhelmed and found my days trying and daunting. I was nervous to have this fourth baby because I didn’t know what to expect. With having so many mixed-up feelings inside, how would I do with the onslaught of hormones that come after delivery?
After my husband decided we were going to be silent about his past pornography addiction, we went on as usual with our life. Shortly after, I became pregnant with our fourth child. We were ecstatic and felt very blessed. I was excited because it gave me a new focus after being in such sorrow. However, it did not change the fact that my husband and I never talked about any of the hard issues.
When I began walking through this devastating path sometimes I got tired. I was tired of learning how to help my husband. I was tired of learning about why he was tempted by pornography.