I’ve been feeling hopeless lately. Being in this marriage has been so hard. Nothing that I expected marriage to be is happening. Everything I wanted in my life has been broken. I just don’t know what to do sometimes.
How can I live with and continue loving this man who has hurt me so deeply? How can I try to trust him when he has been proven untrustworthy? God- it’s impossible. Sometimes I just want to give up. I feel like I can’t take this hurt anymore. God- only You see me as tears fall down my face in bed at night. God- You know how much I gave my life and my heart to this man. I loved him freely. In return, he tricked me into believing a lie about our love.
I know he has his own problems. He grew up with pornography. It’s not about me. I know all that in my head. But right now, I don’t care about any of that. Right now I’m crushed. Right now it’s hard to go on. That’s why I’m asking You, God, to come and help me. Please come into my heart and bring comfort, hope, and relief. I know now that only You God can I trust. Only You fully love me and want me to be blessed. Please help me to rely on You alone God. You are my strength! In You I will find hope! I am believing in Psalm 30:5 that says
Weeping may endure for a night,
But joy comes in the morning.
God, I pray for that joy and I know You’ll be with me through the weeping.
In Jesus’ Name,